Completely exhausted. My son is paraplegic, he has neurogenic bowel, and bladder. He has a cecum port that I flush And massage his bell each day so he can have a bowel movement laying down on the bed pan. He has a super pubic catheter for his urine. He has a G button he is fed through and enterally. he has a carotid chest port where he gets antibiotics three times a day. He is gram-negative resistant and has a chronic infection that they cannot operate on, so the anabiotic is keeping him alive. In addition to all of this, he is autistic. With intellectual disabilities he is a handful the joy of my life my youngest son I have three older children two daughters ages, 30 and 29 and a son that is 23. I also have a granddaughter who just started middle school. My father passed in 2019 and I inherited my mother who has lived with since that time she is 75 she is not in poor health, but she’s not in good health. She requires a lot of attention mostly emotionally and I do pretty much everything in the home. My son is 102 pounds 5’8 I am exhausted from lifting him in and out of the van to take him out as he cannot do anything other than wrap his arms around my neck to assist himself. I am a former army field, medic, paraprofessional, psychologist, and MedSurg I have been in the caregiving profession since leaving high school.